I finally cracked....

I was wondering when it was going to hit me. It hasn't hit me this whole week. Not even seeing my sister cry, or picking out a song to dance with my brother too(because my dad passed away in '03), or seeing my bro's myspace status "My little sister is getting married this weekend!" and he was excited, and not even because family is coming TOMORROW!!!!

I cracked because I was thinking about my Mom and how happy she was when she saw me try on my dress for her (which I am soooo glad I did, because she hadn't seen me in it in a while!). I was sad because my Sister was supposed to be my other MOH, and I have her bouquet, because I made them sometime last year. I turned it into my toss bouquet, so someone is going to get some really special flowers. I cried because my Dad was supposed to walk me down the aisle and give me away. There's just soo many mixed feelings because this is supposed to be my special day, everything is supposed to be perfect but it won't be. Deep down, I will think about how they aren't here with me to celebrate it all, and I will feel sad. I don't know how I'm really going to enjoy my day 100% thinking about it all. I guess I'll just have to remember how excited they were for me, and try not to be sad. It was soo sweet, I just went up to Edgar and he knew something was wrong with me. He held me while I cried and told me that they would all be with me spiritually, but it's still not the same ya know? Egh-oh well. I'm sure it will continue to come up for the rest of my life.

On a happier note, family is coming TOMORROW(well now it's after 12...so it's today)!!! I can't believe it. Actually, I can. And I'm 100% excited and ready for them to be here. I'm feeling more and more anxious because I'm ready for everyone to be all at the same place. I've been doing a lot lately to try and keep busy. There's only so much you can do when you have finished everything wedding related that you can possibly finish before hand. But, we have been cleaning the yard. Mowing, weed eating, and watering the grass everynight. Getting all the materials, food, tables, and chairs for the outside rehearsal dinner we are hosting at my house Friday night. Which is technically tomorrow night!! Holy Moly!! Today we went and had the final meeting with the dj, talked dances, songs, timelines and must plays. We also went and picked up Edgar and his brother Erick's tuxedos from men's wearhouse. They looked so handsome! I can't wait to see them on Saturday all cleaned up.

When I wake up (I'm setting my alarm for 9 AUGH!) I am going to get my e-ring cleaned, getting Erick a gift, getting some bowls for salsa and chips, Rent 50 chairs for Friday, and then around 3 or so I'm getting my toes and nails done. We will be leaving at around 6:30 to go and pick up family from the airport. Tomorrow....tonight.....will be a LONG night I just know it. We haven't seen this part of the family in over a year. And, we only saw them for 1 day when we did see them when we visited California for a wedding last May. It's gonna be fun. Hopefully I recap again, if not this might be my last post as a single woman!!!! Let the good times roll.....

Just in case....

You don't know how many more days we have until the wedding.....it's SIX! 6 Whole days...less than a week. lol Yea, I woke up this morning with a not so settled tummy! lol I wonder if it's my nerves starting to kick in? Anyway, let's recap.

Friday, Edgar and I had our bachelor/ette party together because when my Mom passed away the planning got put on hold and then we ran out of time, so we just opted to have it together in my backyard. About 40 or so people came, and it was such a fun time. Even though the guys were there, the girls still had plenty of fun. We played Ring Toss with an inflatable male part! Then we also played "Pin the junk on the hunk". That one was just hilarious. One of my bridesmaids had taken pics, and I'm waiting for them to come through my e-mail. I didn't give her the "okay to post on facebook or myspace" but who knows what kind of pics they were. ;) So once I filter through, hopefully I will post some up.
Saturday we woke up, most importantly, NO HANGOVER!!! We went outside and cleaned out the yard. We have this idea of recycling the cans of both that party and the wedding, see how much money we can come up with! We met up with Edgar's Mom and Dad to get cases and cases of beer for the wedding. We hit up the 4th of July specials and the limit was only 2 per person, so we all went in about 3 times, including my sister and her husband! That was an experience. On Wednesday and Thursday of last week, while I was doing my own weekly run of wedding necessities, I ran into Randall's and bought a total of 63 12 packs of sodas, 58 of which were for the wedding. I mean seriously, who could beat the $1.99/12 pack special??? Here's a pic for your enjoyment.

Yesterday after our shopping trip, we came home to play in a water slide thingy that blows up with air. It was the funnest thing ever. Who doesn't need some relaxing, go back and act like a kid, fun time-before the wedding??? Anyway, we played in there with Edgars 2 bros, ,my 2 nieces and my nephew and his girlfriend. Those were some awesome memories! lol Then we got all cleaned up and went to Taylor to watch the fireworks. That was fun too, until my niece brought the dogs not thinking of how they would react to the fireworks, and my dog(inherited from my Mom!) literally freaked out. I will post a whole blog on how I got "Bubba", sometime soon. But here are some pics to hold you over.

Today, I'm working on my big centerpieces for the tables. It's soo surreal because I know that has been last on my to-do list since I started wedding planning. And I kept saying I wouldn't do it until the last week until the wedding. But guess what!?!??! It's here! We see family in 4 days and the wedding is just right around the corner.

Such an amazing experience....

I don't know where to begin because there has been SOOOO much going on lately. I've been MIA because my Mom got really sick 2 weeks ago, that the DR's made us call everyone we possibly knew to come see her because they said she wouldn't make it through the night. That was super scary, especially after dealing with everything with LeeAnn (My sister) passing away in November. So we called everyone and they said if she came out of the heavy medicine she would have a slight chance of making it. Well, fast forward to today-she's getting moved to a rehab clinic so they can get her up and walking and doing things again and she will get to come home in 5 days! I'm super excited and love my Mom to death, I couldn't imagine life without her.
Besides that, my nephew graduates on Friday....like in 3 days Friday!!! I can't believe it. This kid is the absolute love of my life.....yea he's right there with Edgar! He's going to do amazing things and do great in college. We've been getting invitations together and out and we've been planning his graduation party too.
End of the year madness at school is just piling up and piling up! We have soo many meetings about how to properly close our classroom down. We have field day tomorrow and a field trip to Zilker on Friday. There's no school on Monday and I just got an e-mail saying that the ladies at work are throwing me a bridal shower next Wednesday! Between all this mess, and stuff I need to do before the end of the year I don't know when I'll have time to finish. As much as I don't want too, I see coming in on Saturday and Sunday is something I......er we(edgar and whoever else I'm going to guilt into).....are just gonna have to do!
Yesterday Edgar and I went to the apartment place to fill out the application and put down the deposit for our BRAND NEW place!!! We will be the first renters there because the complex is soo new and I can't be more excited. We aren't moving in until July 15th, which is only 4 days after the wedding...am I crazy!?!?! There was actually logical thinking behind this plan, like having extra help to move, just taking our wedding gifts there, starting a new beginning together.....but I think it's going to be overwhelming.
Oh yea, and I also got hired to work summer school, and we get paid on July 2nd. The last day of summer school will be July 1st and we will only have 10 days until the wedding. The RSVP's are coming in....slowly. The deadline is the 1st of June and we got our first wedding gift in the mail yesterday! It's all just soo surreal, but exciting at the same time.

Had to post

We are at 60 something days...yes I forgot and yes I'm too lazy to count or figure it out!!! But, the reason for this post is because our invitations are OFFICIALLY OUT!!! I was supposed to go on Friday after work but I got caught up and didn't make it in time. So I started handing out the ones over the weekend and then the ones to CA got sent out today. Whew! It was a great feeling and the postal lady gave me the WORST STAMPS EVER!!!! Then she was in a rush to stick them on that she was putting them on upside down and sideways.....egh oh well. I tried not to stress over it and I was just really happy to send them.
In other news, the only major things to do are make some final vendor payments, a couple of DIY projects, programs(which falls into the DIY category) and finish up getting groomsman gifts and OOT bags. I can't believe I'm almost down to the 2 month mark. It's kind of making me anxious that my ticker will say 1 month and something. I'm really excited to see all the family from CA and especially to get back their RSVP's because even though they have bought their plane tickets...it won't actually hit me until they actually send them back and I have them in my hands.
Okay, I gotta go sulk because my Celtics lost! Love ya.

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Okay so today I didn't go to work. My left ear has been clogging up. It just feels like allergies or something but I was getting kind of worried. When I was smaller I had BIG problems with both my ears and almost had to have tubes put in. My Mom and older Sister both say I had ear infections all the time. I believe I have hearing loss but I'm not too sure. Everytime I get them checked the nurse or dr say "Do your ears hurt?" I guess they see something??? lol Anyway, so I was getting worried and I stayed home today from work to see if I should visit a DR. I wanted to make sure it was really allergies and not me going deaf or something. I got some antibiotics so hopefully that helps. It only clogs on occasion and then when I bend down or something. The weather is crazy lately so that is probaly something to do with it.

Edgar plays slow pitch softball so he had a game tonight. They won 28-11. Their team is atually good this season, which is a first. They are tied for 1st place and I can't believe it! :)

I know, I'm evil.

My biggest accomplishment today is finally getting ahold of all my BM's on the same day I've texted them! This has NEVER happend before. We need to get together so I can go over important details & days for the wedding. With the wedding 3 months away we are down to limited weekends. It's crazy to realize how close it really is. Those of you that are getting married this weekend I envy you!!!! So we will be meeting on Friday at 7 to go over some details. I will give them a paper will everything on it so they can't come back and say I didn't let them know. We need to talk about hair details (I'm paying to get their hair done so I need to know what they want so I can let the girl know), shower dates, rehearsal date, the dinner plan-since Edgar's family is from CA, they will all be attending the dinner and we're making it a family get together type thing rather than a "wedding rehearsal dinner" and the plans for the actual day of the wedding. I need to know if they want to actually do a wedding party dance(do people do that anymore!?!?!) Or if they want to pull a cool stunt and just all start dancing like those cool youtube videos. :) Hopefully everything goes well-which I'm sure it will.

Alright, well I have to go and get ready for work tomorrow.

Peace out.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Well, good thing I've been collecting green things lately, partly because it's my wedding color and I've become attached to it (because it's the color of the lymphoma cancer ribbon and thats the Cancer my sister had before she passed away). I've been missing her like CRAZY lately. It's weird to think of my life now without her, because we had become bestfriends for the last couple of months of her life. I get super sad when I think of my birthday coming up on the 26th and she always always always gave me a card. I remember being like 12 and LOVING *Nsync and she gave me a Justin Timberlake card that said Happy Birthday. That was like the.best.card.ever!! lol Oh well.

I've been enjoying Spring Break. The weather is wonderful! Much better than Friday when it was cold and rainy. Now it's in the high 70's & 80's and it's just GREAT!!! I bought some bermuda shorts from Target yesterday only to realize they weren't "me" and I returned them today. I took my nieces out to lunch instead. It was a good treat for us all. My Mom is adding another room and bathroom to the back of the house so I've been overseeing all the transactions and making sure she isn't getting screwed over. Granted-it's my uncle doing it, but my Mom is such a trusting person I would hate for her to get screwed.

Yesterday was our 1 year anniversary with the Charger. I loved it then and I love it still! I'm surprised it's been a year already!!! This was the day we bought it.

Ha, granted it's my car now! Edgar is in the process of buying my Mom's Honda Civic. I'm happy he let me claim the charger. It's amazing and I love everything about it. Here's one more pic....Yesterday we met with the priest. A couple of months ago we went over to the Church and took a 140 questonnaire that was just basically if we agreed/disagreed/or were uncertain. We went over it yesterady and only "missed" 4 questions. It was good to see how well we knew each other and how much we actually talked about throughout our relationship. The priest was pretty impressed. We then set the rehearsal date and time up. We are doing the rehearsal the Thursday before the wedding at 7 PM. I figured if we did it on Thursday then on Friday we can have a dinner, instead of everyone trying to rush and squeeze everything in one day. Plus-it makes all of FI's family that are in the wedding come an extra day earlier. :)

I need to get motivated and finish the following things:

1. Addresses for invitations.
2. Table Runners. I've completed 1/28!
3. Buy more vases.
4. Buy stamps for invitations.
5. Begin program layout.
6. Bouts for the GM's and the flowers for the ladies and Padrinos for the wedding.

Thursday we have a meeting with the lady at the hall where the reception is going to be held and we will be going over the layout of the tables and chairs. That way I know exactly how many runners/centerpieces/and anything else I need! I will also do a table mock-up of my "vision" as to what my wedding will look like. Hopefully I don't do a re-vision afterwards! :)

Valentines Day

Wahoo! It's Valentine's day & Edgar's 23rd B-day!!! What better way to celebrate than to both be WORKING! :) Yea, it sucks but what can we do? I have yet to get him anything, because we said we would be low-key this year because of the wedding. Valentine's Day isn't really big in our relationship anyway, because of his B-day, so no V-day present and yes on the B-day present. I think he's leaning towards wanting another hat. I realized he is addicted to hats like I am purses/shoes/clothes/wedding stuff! HAHA
With the 5 month mark 3 days ago, my life has been hit with OMG I can't believe all this I still have to do. Also, there's so many new things popping into my life all at once. I never would have imagined I would be this busy and still need to do soooooooo many wedding things. I once thought I was ahead in the game, then time just started flying by and now I feel like I'm behind! I'm sure it's just me that thinks this-because I am pretty sure I'm not behind.....but I always like to be 2 steps ahead of everything. I am behind in a sense that I haven't picked my DJ or Photographer. BUT, I know who I want for my photographer and if she's still available when I'm ready to book her, then she was meant to shoot my wedding! lol I'm taking a HUGE risk though.
My Sister-In-Law was on her way to work on Wednesday and she got rear ended. She refused medical attention but then when she got to work her back and neck started to hurt so she went in to get checked out. They told her she was fine but SURPRISE YOUR PREGNANT! lol So, that was a major schock. They got married in Nov. '07 and have been trying since, so we knew it could happen.....but it wasn't expected.
After work this is what I hope to accomplish.

• Go Meet Edgar for our Valentines/Birthday Lunch.
• Pay some bills
• Go to shoe carnival for their $5 shoes!
• Get Edgar a b-day cake for when he gets home.
• Look at fabric for the table runners.
• Get my ribbon for my invitations.

Hopefully I accomplish everything, but right now I have to go and deliver snacks!

OUCH!!

Well, my sinus infection is back! It's been a crazy couple of days. The kids just seem so loud to me. I was out yesterday because I wanted to sleep all day instead of work. Today I have a cough and my throat is tooooo scratchy. It doesn't matter how much water I'm drinking....it doesn't help! Augh, oh well.
I met with my Godmother on Sunday. I thought I had everything figured out. Turns out, I was sooo behind! :) It was a good thing we met because she asked every question possible. Monday, I left work for an hour to meet with the priest with Edgar and turns out he said "you never made an appointment" and we had to just leave! I was sooo upset because he wasn't doing anything, and he had called Edgar to make an appointment on Friday for that Monday morning. This is about the 5th time there has been a miscommunication (all on his part) and we've only met with him like 3 times! Augh, oh well. I will reschedule for the week of Spring Break. He says we have "plenty of time!" Although, I'm not sure I should hold him to that.
We finished our Marriage Classes that the Church required on Tuesday. We got our little certificate that I need to make a copy of and send it to the Church. I also have been filling out how we want our ceremony. I had a copy of that made so I would know for the programs and stuff. We also are waiting for another certificate to come in the Mail that we will take to get our Marriage license (for FREE!) which will save us the $60+ it costs now.
Edgar's Dad has already had us over to their house to yell at us and have a breakdown caused by money stress. We got griped out about not paying off the hall, and how the economy is bad(which we understand) and the people that were going to probably give us a lot of money....probably aren't going to be able too. I'm sorry, but if the wedding is going to suck-it will be Laura & Edgar's fault....not Edgar's Dad's. Anyway, Edgar was upset over it all and I just tried to let him know that we have a plan and everything will get paid the way we need it to be when we can get around to it.
My next few steps for the wedding are:

1. Contact the DJ that comes with our venue and see if we want to use him and upgrade our package.
2. Get more fabric and make the table runners.
3. Find out about going in Friday evening and decorating then, instead of trying to scrounge people that aren't in the wedding to make sure everything is together Saturday morning.
4. Keep working on the Bouts and Wrist Corsages.
5. Work on getting together my program and the wording and layout of it all.

WHEW! I better get going.

Vendor Check!

Okay, well I'm a little late on this entry because I've actually been busy for once!
Wednesday we went and had our tasting with a potential caterer. It went awesome! We found this lady at a flea market here, a place called the Crockett Center. Originally I found her because I was looking for a photographer and she had a photographer/videographer package. Then when we started talking to her she said her husband did catering. Anyway-we went and he had us a dish waiting. We were surprised because we thought we were just going to meet them and talk prices....and try to work out a deal. :) So we looked at their menu-like 11 different types of dishes they do. We picked (and luckily it was what he had made us!) a chicken breast stuffed with mozzarella cheese and ham covered in alfredo sauce, vegetables, fettuchini(SP?) alfredo, a roll, salad, and it came with a fruit bar. The fruit bar comes with, grapes, pinepples, cantoloupe, strawberries, kiwis, and a chocolate fountain. Also, the provide fruit punch (in a fountain also) with the plates for the fruit bar and the cups. They also are providing us utensils for dinner and plates for the food. We opted to rent out 4 servers to pass out food and pick up the eaten plates. Anyway, all of that food before for only $8.50 PER PERSON!!!!! It's amazing. All of my Austin knotties/bloggers-----if you're interested I will give you the contact info. The food was DELICIOUS. I will post a pic later, I'm at work and the picture is on my home computer.
Tonight no big plans. Just working out and trying to find Edgar's Keys!!!! The only key we have to the honda is on there, so the honda is not driveable right now! I know-that's what we get for not having an extra key but it's my mom's old car and my brother had/has the extra set and he can't find them right now. Which means he will NEVER find them. Also, the key to the Charger is on there. Now that one I'm kind of upset about because the dealership told us it would be like over $200 to replace that key! Sooo....unless I want to fork out over $200 for a new key to the Charger, I'm going to rip my room apart.
Tomorrow is Saturday School tutoring. So, work from 7:45-around 12:30. Afterwards I'm going home to work out and then my SIL is supposed to come over. I haven't decided what I wanted to work on for the wedding....but hopefully I decide by tonight so I can make sure I have everything we need.
I'm sleepy...I need 2:45 to come fast!!!!!

Go away!!!

Man, I have this headache that just won't go away! Why me? Why, why, why! I just know it's allergies, and the weatherman confirmed it when I heard him say "Cedar is the highest it's been in Austin in quite sometime!" Augh-and it doesn't help with you have barking dogs and loud TV's.

Today was pretty uneventful. I just worked and came home at 5:30. Edgar went to go play Basketball, which left me to be able to take a nap without him complaining. I've been knotting/searching/myspacing & facebooking all day! lol Call me lame but it's just one of those days.

Thank goodness tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!!!! I actually get off at 2:45. If only I can make it to work on time tomorrow! My ass better wake up at 5:50 when my alarm goes off, rather than 6:30.....knowing I'm supposed to be at work at 6:45. :) Good thing the principals aren't really strict and I only live about 7 minutes away from work.

I don't know exactly what's on my "TO-DO" list for this weekend. I will probably make more pomander balls for the Church because I still have 11 more. I will make 1 full invitation and go get it weighed at the post office. I think I need to fold my programs and attach the front design. Possibly start making the inside layout of the program. Who knows...I'm just talking out of my ass right now! lol I'm delirious. (SP?)

Checks, Lists and More

Well, I haven't posted in a while. But I haven't forgotten about it. I haven't been in the mood to do anything wedding after my Sister passed away November 6th. I finally had to basically kick myself in the butt to get motivated because I just hit the 7 month mark!

I got my Dress November 12th! I LOVE it. I started to forget why I picked that dress, and then when I put it back on I fell in love with it. I am still in the process of trying to decide if I want a colored shoe or I should just go with an ivory. I am going to try and stay in my wedding shoes for as long as possible, but I will have some back-ups just in case. Here are my choices:

These are the dresses my girls have picked out for the wedding. This dress is at David's Bridal. It looked cute on ALL my girls and their sizes are between 4-16. They really loved the Cornflower color but too bad I didn't keep that color. Oh well!

Let's see what else is there...I'm trying to make myself a list of things I want to complete within the next month and then the next month and so on. Earlier I made a list of DIY things I wanted completed and then I have to make another list on things I need done for the wedding...like booking things. Hopefully tomorrow I will have that finished. I also just finished my holiday cards and I need to get those in the mail tomorrow.

It's literally freezing outside! BURRRR!!! I hope it ices over tomorrow and they cancel school. I would totally be in heaven.